The Waiting Place

Do any of you remember "The waiting place" from Dr. Zeus' book "Oh! The places you'll go!"? Well, people end up there a lot in life...ironically I think most of life is spent in the waiting place...if you think about it, how much of our life is really taken up by spectacular moments? We're usually waiting for something, even if it's just waiting for the mail or for food to cook. We just don't always realize it when we're there. We pass through momentarily and are off doing something else before we have a chance to look around. But sometimes, sometimes it is very obvious. And when it becomes obvious, it can become unbearable!

Currently, I am in the waiting place. It is about 98 3/4% deffinately decided (to use another reference from the book), that we will move to Colorado in June. My husband has been accepted to his school and his program, he's put in pretty much all the paperwork, I've already had an interview for a job out there, and even viewed some appartments....which could be a post in and of it's self....anyway, the point is, I know I'm moving in June, and I can think about nothing else!

However, there are 2 1/2 months untill June 1st, I am still a graduate student, I still have my T.A. responsibilities, and I have a thesis to finish in that time frame! In some respects it seems like more than enough time, and in some ways, it seems scary impossible! I still need to write the majority of my thesis, I need to do at least 5 more interviews, hopefully 7, I need to analyze those interviews, I need to defend my thesis, and I need to submit my final written version and have it all corrected by then....well, that last part I could send in the mail, but it would be best if it was all done before we left. And that's just my school responsibilities. I also have to think about packing up a whole 2bdrm appartment and decide what will go, what will stay, and what can be sold.

I have a particularly bad habit, when I feel overwhelmed, of not doing anything. When I have so many things on my plate that I can't decide what i should do first, I end up taking forever to decide and then rush to complete things days before they should be done. I suppose it's not so bad, I've always operated this way, and in some respects, I work better this way. I've tried the recommended method of working on a large project a little bit at a time, but inevitably it always comes down to getting alot of little things done within a short period of time. AND, depending on what the project is, if it's not something I'm thinking about all the time, it takes me a good 20mins to an hour to get my mind back on the track for that project, so spending a little bit of time every day on it really doesn't help me much. I just wish I COULD do that, or that my house would clean it's self...that would help alot too! LOL.

Because, another bad habit of mine, is that when I am not particularly interested in what I have to do, I am easily distracted by other things I need to do that take less brain power. Like doing laundry or cleaning the house....and sometimes I can get REALLY distracted, and start using a completely opposite side of my brain! (Like writting in this journal or making something) Heh, anyway, the waiting place is a pretty annoying place to be. It's hard to get up the motivation to do things I know I need to do, when all I have any interest in is plans for Colorado! I know I should just let myself get comfortable here,...it's not going to go any faster and it certainly won't make the move any easier if I procrastinate and don't get my thesis done! lol. But still, I just have this sense that it's not going to be so hard to write the thesis, and I know I'll need to write it in big chunks to get all my thoughts out, and just...yeah....it's a matter of showing what I found in a way that other people can understand. It's not all that scary, just, time consuming and uninteresting. My least favorite thing is non-fictional writting...like for reports and such. It's kind of unfortunate that I'm so good at it. :-/